It has being so long since i update...Haha....And boy, loads of thing happen......There are too many subject to cover today...I'll go two at a day to make up for the time lost!
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1) My sad love life
2)My job

Firstly, i sorta have a crush on this guy but as the days goes pass i realise he isn't really what i want and certainly he isn't what he seems.I think he just got lost in all the laughing that he'll never show how he really like.I don't really discriminate people for having their own unique self but i do discriminate people who's always putting a veneer.I cannot describe how irritating and frustrated it is for the other party.There are certain things i'll give u only a chance and there are certain things i only tell you once.Not that i am so sure of myself, just that if you need to much prompting then i am not sure about you anymore.And I don't like people who are not sure of themselves..how can you expect someone to love you when he/she don't even love themselves.Sometimes we all induge ourselves in flirting and all that we lost focus on what is really important....Soon we all will realise that senseless flirting is really a waste of time....Imagine we could use all these time to really know each other on a deeper level.Initially i am like omg what if he don't like me what if he finds me a bore what if.........now i am like well i just be myself and do what i want so take it or leave it.And i think LL open up my views and just confirm some of my nagging doubts.It is important to have a friend that give it to you hard because those are true friends and not just some wannabe-your-best-friend type.But if it doesn't turn out to be what your friend said, don't ever blame them too much because at the end of the day u're the one holding the chips and you hafta be responsible of your action.Maybe he isn't really what we think of him and so time will tell everything.But all these have little significant to me now.......but overall he is a nice person to crap with and at times he does make me smile....we're going to a trip with the rest of his friends and i am excited about the trip not that cause i get to see him or whatever...Maybe i would be a week ago but not nw....It's like whenever you have a fail relationship, always take it as a thinking path...what could you have done better, was it your problem or his,are you blind by your passion and love that you can't think straight etc.We cannot always have what we want but we can make sure we become a better person at every failure to maximise the chances of having what we want.Don't change yourself if there isn't any problem with you because then we've become someone else that we don't really wish for.That's one of the saddest thing in the world.

My present life is like very routine based.....mon to fri 9.00am to 6.00pm work at psa vista blue water.Sat and sun to go out with friends or have a good rest at home.Did i mention the darlings at blue water company are paying me $9/hr and they suggest this pay at my second day of work (despite being late for 40 min the 1st day).I did nothing productive at my first day yet there were so nice to suggest they extend me privately after two weeks.They say rather let the agent earn that $9/hr they rather give me the whole $9.Now if this is not call nice i dunno what is.And they even ask if i am happy working down there and how long i wanna work down there.So it's pretty offical that i'll most probably be there till 15th june.Although it is really far from my place (like it takes 1hr 15 min for me to reach) but i really like the people working in there.There is no such thing as office politics down there....everyone like each other...no fakeness or whatever so.And most importantly, they are seriously the most hardworking people i've seen in my life so far.They always work till late...like 7 or 8 and they told me once they work till 11.00pm...OMGZ LAR.As a result i always feel guilty when i leave at 6pm...haha but i aren't that bad sometimes i work till 6.15-6.20pm to finish up my work...They are really nice people and i truly like them.The boss so far is very nice to me ( althought i heard him scream at one of the staff) and he is reported to be very fierce and hates people opening his drawer and shifting his things in the office.Which i have done all of them in front of his presence.I was at his room doing some data entry and he walk in and we greated each other.Then step walk in wanting to 'rescue' me and he look at me and said never mind he sit outside till i finish my work.Den at that time i open his drawer to take a stapler and shift his computer screen nearer to me.Step and his eyes totally pop out! And the boss gave me a double look.It is suppose to be really frightening but i find it so hiliarous that i laugh out loud with step after he left the room.Anyway he went hong kong disneyland and got all of us a mickey letter stand...I got one too and boy i was sooooooooooo surprise cause after all i have being working at there for only two weeks plus.I even ask him serious that is for me..and he say yupz.So nice rite.One of the main factor that makes you wanna come to work is really how the people there are like.Althought sometimes i might fall asleep doing data entry( cuz it gets so boring and monotoneous) but overall i do look forward to work everyday...Haha

Y 12:14 AM