Sunday, December 31, 2006
Maybe I am a bit eccentric and hard to understand but that doesn't mean i am impossible to.They just find it too bothersome and assume that i am kind and nice that i won't mind anything.That i laugh and smile too much that they forget i'll cry like anyone,have mood swings like anyone.That if i explain they'll think i am being unreasonable,demanding,spoilt........all these negative thoughts but nthing about this might just be the last few attempts i am willing to give them anymore.If i leave them one day they'll be in shock and blame me for nt warning them when in fact i gave them so many warnings and chances.I am sorry that i cannot continue giving chances to people without burdening myself too much.Day by day, bit by bit i feel i am losing my true self because i know there is always a chance that people will not be able to accept that part of me.I find it too scary to show sadness because they will bring upon lots of explaination after it.I never like to show people that i am vulnerable too......maybe this is the root of all the problem...Where is that place where i can really be myself and people will still love me the same....I'll spend my whole life time to search and of course there are chances that i might not be able to find it ever.I shall close my eyes and leave this world for the time being.....
Y 3:43 AM
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Ｄ ■性格基因 你是個執著樂觀的人，對人生的看法充滿熱忱和幾分難得的孩子氣。重視情感的你很容易被打動，正因為如此，經常受制於人情壓力，且因為情感付出太多，最後被毫無保留 的傷害而深感痛苦不已。你的想法單純，不夠世故是你的優點，也是缺點。任何事情都是一體兩面，你的善良成為他人利用你的拿不出主見，受到他人看法影響而搖擺不定，會影響學習與工作，甚至是愛情運。你的妥協多半是沒有必要的，因為天真而受創，也難以博得他人的同情。 ■生命路線 你需要更理性地厘清自己的需要，不要順著感情做判斷和過日子。你已經耗費很多時間與心力在成就他人，和滿足自己的情緒感動，剩下來的時間，你應該學著為自己訂出原則。保持生命的熱忱很重要，但請不要忘了也要善待自己，過濾朋友和予取予求的家 人，或是與情人保持距離，是你要加強的務實理性生存態度，千萬不要過分燃燒自己，最後只是為了照亮他人。你的身體裏面需要有一點點自私的血液，對於人性的洞察也要更加深刻。孩子氣雖賦予你可愛的特質，但學習保護自己，也是成長的重要課題。 This is a test i did in attempt to know myself better....i find it pretty accurate to a certain extend like maybe i am really naive n all...
Y 12:43 AM
