Wednesday, July 20, 2005
my wallet(that my frds claim tat it looks like the malay cake),my hp(which i dun so desire for it) n my handwriting(tat all people complains either being too messy or small tat it kills their eyes)...blah! wat loads of rubbish!
Y 3:42 PM
okiez i noe my drawing sucks...duhz tat is why enrol myself in art class in the 1st place...
Y 3:40 PM
GIGGLE...erm lame...okie nt funny...
Y 3:35 PM
clicky click...am doing work!!! see!!! hello to those out there...perfect proof tat i DO WORK!!!
Y 3:34 PM
yawnnnnnnn......art classs can be sucha drag n bore....
Y 3:33 PM
wawa,zhong min and me...zm is a happy happy guy...lame in a nice way..nice,respectful,kind n considerate....he always spreads his happy germs to me which i welcome everytime...
Y 3:31 PM
me n wawa staring lovely at each other...ahahhaha....those design...the did it(zhong min n erasmus)
Y 3:30 PM
me.erasmus,wawa.....erasmus is really a cool guy ,nice,patient,talented,artistic,share a lot of common stuff...wheeeeeee n wawa is like everything nice n cute n v bubbly...(ignore my low cut top...nt deliberate...juz tat my darn top EXPAND after washing)
Y 3:29 PM
blah blah blah...so wat!! cannot take photos is it...humph!
Y 3:04 PM
my two close frd...love them to bitzzzzz
Y 2:56 PM
okie...we fight n all that...but in the end everything is okie...thank you for everything that you've done for me and i really appreciate it a lot.Thanks you for always enduring my demanding n spoilt moments...thank you for pacifying me with all your remaining patience..thank you for beliving so strongly even thought a lot of time my belief wavies a lot.thank you for standing so steadfast about all these because if u didn't we would't be where we are now.I am spoilt and willful at times and i am sorry about it..but that is juz the way i am...maybe things are shaky n all for now...but if we stand firmly and try to work things out it'll be okie rite???
Y 2:44 PM
Monday, July 18, 2005
Today's lesson is sucha drag.Sql plus Visual Basic...how sucky can it get....The whole class is soooooooo restless and majority of them are doing everything but work.It's a monday..........Grrrr sql used to be fun and all that but now with vb it just totally sucks.Let's hope that we don't hafta do this next week....but den again...everyone seems so enthusiastic except for me....i am losttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!That reminds me i've being missing far too many drama shows likes lost.I totally have no idea what the show is talking about anymore(and i've miss like three or four eposide already)...ahahhaha.today is an unlucky day....i woke up late for school ,lost my diamond earing and this difficult problem for today.And i am still sleepy after the redhill blues party that we had at helmi's house(that's the director).And guess what the cool thing is that his house is just next to the red house(yups one of the famous haunted house in singapore).It's so cool and some of us actually wanted to go explore it but was not allowed by serene and sue due to um safety reasons i guess.Everyone was like very high and a bit drunk so they start to dance like mad and say some random stuff.It was fun for a while but after that it got kinda like weird...because i and a few like gurmit n samuel was the only few that is still sober....And i ended staying overnight there when i planned not too...Well if i've got a lot of cash with me i would most probably take a taxi home.But den with the midnight charge and the distance(from like tampiness to bukit panjang) is like expensiveeeeeeeeeeeeeee.So i just stayed there with gurmit,janice,samuel,wan cheng and sue.We chatted and crap a lot especially me with wan cheng...ahhaha i loveeeeeeee her.I can really connect with her and all that....and she is a good catch really...i dun even understand why nobody is after all...they are blind.So many things happen in the party...very awkard stuff but i don't really feel like typing them down here...
Before i end...we played truth or dare and it was crazy............like totally.It's not either like kiss or liplock or french kiss or act out masturbation that sorta sex related stuff...so the bottle was pointed at me and helmi(the director) and they ask me to kiss him on the lips...and i was like noooooooo way.So not only i was label as a spoiltsport and i was booted out of the game...Ahahahah but it was fun watching people kiss and all that...Well maybe i am extra uptight about kissing and all that but that is just the way i am...I'll say no even if it's a game and will only kiss people i like....period...okiez i am too stone to type anymore...continue later...or something like that.
Y 11:23 AM
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
okie i think i am wayyyyyyy too harsh...i take back what i said about janice yesterday...that was really mean..That is also why i always feel sooooooooo relieve that not much people know my blog...Imagine the aftermath of my emotional outburst.....(Shiver)Sue kept asking for my blog...and so like the others but i don't wanna give because all the things i write is soooooo private and i don't wanna turn this blog into something that is for the others but not myself.I shudder at the thought of writing things like : 'wow i spend blah blah day with blah blah blah person.guys i miss u so much..hugsssssssss'.Nooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!I dun want that because i wanna write everything i feel without hiding anything at all...you know that sort of feeling like being able to relese yourself totally in all these words,being able to vent your anger in here...here is my hideout....Okie i am losing it..Mmmm continue den i shall...Oh ya i did something that i am darn proud of myself...that is i delete and block justin bryan already.I should have done this earlier and then maybe he won't be lying and bugging me.i shouldn't have keep hoping and believing that he would be honest with me anymore and i should have stop believing in him anymore.Oh well but all these is a past already so oh well~(shrug).
Something terrible happened yesterday but was too tired and too upset to write anymore further..So i shall do it now...I fight with sue yesterday and that was our first major fight...It was really nasty and we exchange a few harsh and insensitive words...And i thought she's sucha horrible person because she didn't care.i said if we pretend not to talk to each other...it would mean for real and not even chat online n sms.Then she was like pissed and said like she thought it was just not meeting that's all and she said anything lar,suits myself,too tired to care that sorta hurting and insensitive words..Well so i didn't say it out to her but certainly to myself was like : fine she choose janice already watever lar....who cares huh.But then i and her talk on the phone and all that so i am like okies and she was like so apologetic that i just forgive her...Besides i was harsh with my words too...Althought she bugs me and all that and is mean to me at times.But still she let's me my way if she can and therefore she is someone i really do treasure.And we have so much in common and see eye to eye with each other and i could just be myself around here therefore it makes me comfortable.And all the conicident is like scary(in her tone)....lol.And we chatted on the phone to talk it all out and she told me like she ask janice to leave her to be on herself for the time being...And we chatted till we were like pratically falling asleep.....And was reading her blog juz now and she was soooooooo sweet to apologise in there that i did the same to her on msn.So everything is okie...I am just gald everything is over because at time it is like totally draining away my energy and it sometimes it just upsets me emotionally.
Yawn i am lazy to type.....maybe blog again later or tmr???
Y 2:20 PM
Monday, July 11, 2005
i am super disguested and pissed off with janice.Can she stop giving me or sue pressure.It's like everything she wanna know and she demands to know everything between me and sue.I dun have to report to you or whatever okie.I tried to be nice and want to work things out and always helping u all along even though u give me that kind of attitude but u have to push me this far.Enough is enough!From now onwards i shall not even bother to help you extra about sue and anyway you don't care too so why should i.I am sorry that me and sue gotten really close but i did no cause u and sue to drift apart nor am i the cause that sue rejected you.You are just too lost in all these to think of things rationally.Is it fair to me?Sometimes you are so selfish...and i dun want to keep giving n giving in
Y 11:04 PM
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Sigh i dunno what to do man.The drama people does sue likes me and it is like kinda spreading big.And janice is still soooooooooo into sue and i feel that she resent me for that.And every single thing that i share with sue or i spend with sue is like amplify a million times.i feel soooooo stress.And she and me used to be so close...I even help her escape from her absuive boyfriend and i even help her 'chase' after sue.It's like all this she has disregard it.And i feel so strongly that she drifted away from me ever since i have contact with sue.And it certainly didn't help when me and sue became closer and closer day by day till we are like almost hanging out 24/7.And it surely didn't help when she let me wear her accessories like for as long as i wan,asking me to hang out before n after the show and during the break,the songs n guitar tat she played at my direction(which would seemely seems to be played for me but juz concidental),she sometimes hold my hand,talk really closely to me,sits with me.Those are pure concidents and totally like natural to us.I will be so dead if she discover that me n sue sms each other at the same exact moment at esplanade with the rest even though we are one seat apart,if she knows i spend a night at sue's hse,slept in her bed,hang ard till the next day 10 plus etc.i cried just now cause of that.Just feel soooooooo stress and tired...Althought i ask sue not to worry so much and she said she didn't...but still i dun worry about anyone but janice.The way she called sue yesterday to ask about microscopic events of the whole day( why am i talking to sue and why is she so close and all that).And i just discover from sue yesterday that everyone came to asked her if she likes me even wawa and lala(these two are like so darn close to her).
Let's go to a happier subject.The red hill blues was really a total success.We all did welll especially the last show(saturday night)...friday night was not bad too but it was the saturday noon that is a bit low on energy...well maybe it's cause the noon audience was a bit too quiet so it just affect our energy level.Or maybe we are just saving our energy for the last...haha watever~.And my friends ,facilitator and coach that came to watch said it was real good and i acted really well in it.So i am happy that they enjoyed the show and that we didn't let them down.And they said my japanese tourist was like real cute and they laugh a lot...That is what helmi(the director) and everyone does...Everytime i start to say my lines they will be laughing nonstop....Grrrr.But nvm i am so used to it already.And marc was like telling me this over at msn
}VN Violation of the Rules MoonFlows says:
yah.. hehez.. my friens say you look very very cute
}VN Violation of the Rules MoonFlows says:
then yesteray go out with them they keep asking abt u..
meow meow: people favourite question( r u attatched?) says:
which one?
}VN Violation of the Rules MoonFlows says:
5 girls an 4 guys
}VN Violation of the Rules MoonFlows says:
u not gonna rea for ur ut eh?
meow meow: people favourite question( r u attatched?) says:
lol they all ask abt me?
meow meow: people favourite question( r u attatched?) says:
so funny
}VN Violation of the Rules MoonFlows says:
yah they ask about you.. keep asking.. then i tol them whatever i know lo..
}VN Violation of the Rules MoonFlows says:
hmm brb k?
}VN Violation of the Rules MoonFlows says:
i go make tea
meow meow: people favourite question( r u attatched?) says:
lol weirdddddddddd ur frds...
meow meow: people favourite question( r u attatched?) says:
i think they find me cute cuz of the japanese role is it
meow meow: people favourite question( r u attatched?) says:
cuz swordfish scence quite serious
}VN Violation of the Rules MoonFlows says:
hehehz.. yup cuz of your gomenasai... then also u look very cute haha.. thats for the girls.. but the guys u look very pretty
}VN Violation of the Rules MoonFlows says:
haha
Yeah so it's cool and all that...Everything ends on a almost perfect note.....maybe
Y 10:37 PM
Saturday, July 02, 2005
I am freaking pissed off now!!!!!!!Thanks to leonard yuen jia feng and justin wong jia xian.Yes i know it's super evil for me to publish their full name but who cares!NOT I DEFINATELY! They are always doing this...canceling me out the last minute.Hey hello! Do i not have a life?Do i not feel tired?Huh huh!And they too take me for granted already.Sometimes i make the effort to spend time with them despite being busy but what about them huh?Do they?All along i thought i am the one who hasn't being treasuring the friendship but apparently i am wrong.It's them all along.Grrr and i message them that i am not going out with them specially in the future.And justin was like paniking but i don't care!I retort his every sms and msn till he got fed up and said ok fine! Lalalalalal! And leonard said anything lor....So yeps that's the end of our friendship for the better=)Woah i feel better already....Haha..Oh yah i am going to perform at the substation 8th july 8pm and 9th july 3pm and 8pm for drama.It would be sucha good experience.And remember janice?Yeah i kinda became closer to her and know like her secrets.But it didn't change my views about her.What change my views about her is the way she treats me.Sometimes i suspect that she really treat me for granted.It's like if the others are not there for her then she'll come and find me.I mean seriously i have being nothing but a good friend all along for her but if she is like this...Den i can definately go guilt free.And plus cheryl,stella,lili,xiu xia and eric don't want to buy tickets or has no time to go for my performance that it kinda makes me doubt how good friends are they.I am most probably going to offend the whole bunch of them but this is really how i feel.And eric he didn't even wish me happy birthday that time and stella too.All these little things matters a lot to me....maybe they don't realise it...but they should understand the type of person i am.Never mind...i am at the verge of breaking down...I shall not care so much now.
Y 9:13 PM