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I am feeling better now.Didn't have school so didn't go to school.But me, my sister and my brother brought the xiaobudian to the vet.We were thinking of a name for budian because we're all embrassed to tell the animal clinic that it's name is xiaobudian.At first we think of calvin,titus,roger blah blah.Den we settled for the name pudding cause it is the closest to budian.So there you have it, we have a outside name (pudding) and a home name(xiaobudian) for our darling.
It has being sheding fur like mad and it's getting more and more serious.At first we thought the fur will grow back but it didn't and more and more balding occur.So the vet said it's some fungus condition and she had two bottle of medicine and an anti-fungus shampoo for it.We hafta bring it back one month later for follow up regardless of the condition of the fur.So tat's one less problem on my mind.
I feel like skipping school this whole week but I'll most probably be too bored at home and will be too far behind my school work.Ugh!!!
I have being spending excessively on saturday.In fact I spent like $110 within hours and which in fact I AM SO NOT SUPPOSE TO DO SO.As a result I am living like a poor lady...well not that i have ever being rich.BUT I AM RARELY POOR UNTIL I HAFTA CONSIDER IF I WANNA BUY A $1.20 PEARL MILK TEA.
The only two good thing happen to be yesterday are 1st) the two cute guy from subway harbourfront seems to be interested in me.Oh man they are like tall and cute (guys that I have being deprive for very long) 2nd) leo says i am very pretty.I guess when you feel shitty you just need a person to pull you up again.But despite of these, I was still in a terrible mood yesterday...not like angry but more like sad.


him:hahah..u seem unhappy and trying to hide it much
me:serious??
why do u say so
hahah..yup yup...
haha maybe i am smiling but i have sad sorrful look
possibly
haha den why do u think i am sad..
out fo the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks
that's what God knows about us..it's found in the bible
when u are troubled in your heart, the external will show..especialy in speech
sometimes peopl can conceal it well
do i speak sorrowfully/
some people ccan't
haha n i am the later one?
it can be facial expressions as well
well, only you know it yourself..;)
or best as people say "God Knows"
haha
Do u know that there's something in u that u dun even know yourself?
huh
dun scare me
wat is it??
hahah..it's not scary
I believe that there's something beautiful and cheery in you
huh why
but the world's worries or pressure seems to bug you down
u feel stress, unmotivated and lost
that's y your cheeriness and beaty is lost in those
somehow you cannot get the inner peace
maybe......
there r times i do wish the world would stop for a moment...until i am ready
I dunno how true it is for u but that's what God tells me when I do pray for you..:)
lol!! u pray for me...

I think he is darn right about it and i think he is the only one that can see that side of me.I should go marry him or something cause imagine i can just keep quiet and he'll understand me.

Scenerio take 1 :

me: (stoning but actually thinking of eating green tea cake)
he: you want to eat green tea cake rite
me: wow how you know.dis is too amazing!!!

Anyway i am really kidding about the marriage part.

I am really thankful for tat's sweetness and kindness.He's like the most thoughtful and nicest good guy friend i ever had.He accompanyed me the whole day on saturday to look for my ring and we went from like paragon to centerpoint to plaza singapura to raffles city to centerpoint to shaw house before i finally got my ring.And he DIDN'T EVEN COMPLAIN A SINGLE CRAP.In fact he was like supportive and even said let's go back to centerpoint to get the ring (at that time we were at raffles city).I mean how nice can a person be rite.THANKS YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.And he even tried his best to comfort me. But anyway the ring I got is like one size too big but i figure i just wear a ring that is my size and place it above the big ring as a stopper.I did think of using uhu glue and glue up so that it will create that invisible rim but i'm scared it will corrode my ring.

meow meow : : i think ppl thinks tat i am spoilt
meow meow : : but at least i nv do anything bad to others
[c=55]-HWT17: yar lo
[c=55]-HWT17: u might b a bit spoil at times
[c=55]-HWT17: but u still very nice person
[c=55]-HWT17: u r one of the rare person that have nice heart
[c=55]-HWT17: esp that time the dog stuck at the drain
[c=55]-HWT17: how many ppl will do wat u do
meow meow : : den y couldn't ppl see it
[c=55]-HWT17: they juz dun understand u well ba
meow meow : : i noe it is selfish to say this
meow meow : : but why can't yf apologise
[c=55]-HWT17: he dun tink he is at fault
[c=55]-HWT17: and i tink is realli not both ppl fault...but if realli have to say who at fault i still tink both have fault from 3rd ppl view
meow meow : : i dun think it's his fault totally
meow meow : : but i dun think it's my fault at all

Sometimes I will think of xia, think about the times she hang out with us, think about the times we chit chat.But I have never think of Stella.I guess that's because i am always closer to xia than stella.I think that's how lili feels about stella that's why she wanna give stella chance again and again.

Jixuan what are you doing now?How are you?.......................

Suddenly i find all of them irritating....i don't wanna see them...i don't wanna talk to them.Ugh i need peace can! ALL CAN GO N DIE.
DO not talk to me unless I give you the permission to do so.


add: i feel so much better after crying...maybe all i need is a good rest

So many things had happened and as you can see there are certain things i cannot blog down and there are so many lazy moments.
Me and yf fight because to me he just don't seem to care.Maybe you'll think it's selfish of me to expect more than what he can give to me but i feel why the double standard.If you can be so nice to others why can't you do the same to me?Am i any less than them?I don't think so and I do hope you feel the same too.But basically both him and me are the if-you-don't-come-talk-to-me-i-wun-too .As a result I think this is like the 9th day or so both of us is talking to each other.His last sentence was so who do you think i treat better than u and i dun understand why you think tat way.It could well be the last conversation we have.I was sad like a few days ago..why couldn't he come apologise to me or do something nice to me and we'll be talking.why didn't he do something to salvage this.But up to this point I have that heck care attitude.I mean if you don't treasure me then I won't stay beside you anymore.Of course I won't tell him this because it will seem so deliberate.Initially i wanna aplogise for my bad attitude when tat said that he seems quite sad that i was ignoring him and all that.I wanted to buy his favourite tuna wrap but on that same day we quarrel again.And that's the last time we ever talk.We'll most probably continue this ignoring until one party aplogise which I can be certain it isn't me.
Tat told me that day at the lab the strepsil was actually for me.yf bought one for himself and one for me.But you know what he told me i could only take one and he didn't say he bought it for me.So tat was like you noe he wanna mask that he bought u that strepsil cuz he don't want ter and bry and iva to feel jealous.But i think it is really silly cuz i am sure they wun mind and basically i am a very dumb person, in the sense that you must tell me that you are treating me good if not i will just dismiss that.Oh well~ tat's all in the past already.
Me,jj and tat went to the airport on wednesday and we had loads of fun and took loads of photo.I think tat's photo skills sucks...tsk tsk cmi.And of course my photo skills totally rocks!!!!We ate at the weird weird american fast food resturaunt( no it is not macdonalds or burger king!!).I find the food quite oily though but the irony is that we sorta went all the way there just to eat.After that we start patroling around the airport, took photos,gossip,talk about our life and decided to went home at 10.00pm.The stupid thing is when the bus reach seletar camp i told tat we can stop here and take 171.So we did and to our horror(well more of to mine)we discover that there isn't any 171.OMG!!!Cause it's late and all already and we didn't want to take taxi home.So i got mad and refuse to give up plus i swear i was like 100% sure there is 171 at that bus stop cause i have seen it around there before.So we walk inside this forest place and reach quite deep inside before we turn back cause it seems endless.Then after that i said hey we shuld cross over the camp maybe the bus stop is at the other side.And tat said alrite!.And when we did we discover that it is actually inside the camp and not an outer busstop so we had no choice but to turn back and take another bus to change another bus at woodlands.But we were lucky we just manage to board the last bus 187 from woodlands interchange back home.So tat is actually very nice to tolerate my stupidity and stubborness.Thanks=)

I went back to school for fyp and i've being a terrible person cause i gave everyone attitude...why u may ask? The answer is really silly---- cause i am not feeling particularly happy then for some reason they just irks me so i told ivan that well nvm we'll not join them for breakfast.
Yifeng was niceeee he came over and ask me if i want a drink although i ignore him.Ly was a darling...He was the only one soooooooo patience with my attitude although i show him that black and sian look but he still manages to make me smile..I really like my fyp team mates cause they are sooo nice and considerate towards me.You know they really try to pamper me as much as they can in their own ways that is.Like i can always scold them and they still smile and pat my head( well you get the idea...btw they did not pat my head).We all really form a great team cause they update me about routers and i update them about the interface i did.In fact i think cause of the expertness and good team co-ordination and the willingness to work, we like am half way finish our project.It's totally cool and awesome... cause from the start i have a v high expectation for our group.And i choose to stick with the hard coding instead of using the drag n drop type of method to make the interface because i am sure that would gain more points from our group.It will be tough cause it's sorta like from the scratch but it's alrite cause i wanna do a lot for the group.=DAnd on top of it our fyp faci (Mr Tan KT ) isn't as dead and boring and old fashion as i thought of him to be.He treat all of us the same and listens and respect all of us the same.He is actually quite funny and hohoho i notice that he is wearing a Coach watch.That must be uber expensive....sometimes meeting gets a bit boring and my eyes starts to wander...and i just happen to notice...not that i want it for myself or whatever....um are my evil thoughts showing?
I went out with Leo today and boy i miss him so much.We haven't being seeing each other let alone hang out for soooo long.I hope he book the court at wed evening so we can play tennis which is something I miss doing with him.
I swear i am going to become fatter from all the pepper lunch( 6 times this month already).haizzz my stomach fats are overlapping each other and slapping each other....damn sadd...........
haiz depress already......i shall go do 10 sit ups nw...

OMG I LOVEEEEEEEEE THIS TWO RING FROM MARK AND SPENCER...BUT DUN HAVE MY SIZE..OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I SO WANNA BUY THEM....
MAYBE GO ORCHARD BRANCH TO GO CHECK IT OUT ASAP.......
MY EYE SPARKLES WHEN I SAW THEM...IT WAS DEFINATELY LOVEEEEE AT FIRST SIGHT....UGHHHH I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT THEM.....ONLY $35 EACH...PLATINUM COATED...UGH UBER FABULOUS...
I'M SCARED I WON'T BE ABLE TO GO TO BED TONIGHT CUZ I WILL BE THINKING ABOUT IT....IN CASE U WONDER WHY AM I TYPING IN CAPS CUZ I LOVEEEEE THE RINGS AND AM REALLY EXCITED AND AGITATED!!!!!!!!!!!!RAHHHHHHHHHH

PS( THE PHOTOS DOES NOT DO THEM JUSTICE...THEY ARE WAYYYYY BEAUTIFUL THAN HOW IT'S CAPTURED WITH MY HP)

Ok soooooooo many things happened and sooooooo many things to update...I am really lazy about it but i guess i do it in point form

• bon treating me breakfast on thursday because i help him to sorta be ok with his class
• yifeng bought me cup corn n tuna wrap and bring it to my class because they didn't ask me to go breakfast with them on a day.So I got mad and refuse to talk to them until yifeng kept apologising and offer to buy me food to keep my temper down.i heard from justin that yifeng was so worried during class that day and kept asking if i am really angry and all that.actually the whole issue is that they sorta did call me to go eat with them but by the time yifeng was at my class i was gone eating with weng tat already.and everyone sorta assume that someone in the group as me to eat.but of course i am mad lar cuz they always come my class to look for me before going down canteen what.But i think after that day they got scared and always come like call me to eat with them.leong yong was like really lame a few days ago.cuz when they were outside the class trying to get my attention i was like talking to the faci .leong yong juz walk into my class( mind u the faci is stil in that room) and he ask hey u wanna go eat with us? and the faci saw him and was like hey excuse me who are you.den leong yong was like laughing and ignored the faci and walk out of the class.I was like zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.den weng tat and ivan was like complaining saying they all never ask them go eat but never apologise to them or treat them stuff but how come i get this nice treatment.i just haha to reply them.
• um let's see there are three guys n some unknown ones going after me and they are all friends and classmates (b,t,i)and it's really awkard.and they are using their msn nick to hint to each other and to me(to give up and to ask me make a decision)
• i am going over to australia to study for a year and it actually haven't really quite sink in yet but i am sure i'll feel anxious as the day draws nearer and nearer.will you guys miss me?
• my fyp project is a total killer.we have to design an interface that can communicate with cisco routers.blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...but oddly as it sounds it should be quite fun and my team mates are leong yong and ivan which although sometimes they both might quarrel but overall they are nice ,will do work and can entertain me.So they are very useful.wahahahha they'll kill me if they see this.
• i think tat's all.........