Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Sometimes you think you might know your close buddies but then again never be too sure.X told me she being rape last last Christmas.I didn't know and i couldn't tell.Never would i had suspected anything if she didn't say.I was a bit mad at her for not telling us earlier but then again of course i can respect this.I just sorta regret for not being there for her when she need someone.Haha i sound like Stella.But thank goodness she is a strong and open minded person,and this is what brought her through this whole ordeal.But it's alrite cause she is happily attatched and her boyfriend is like pretty nice to her(from what i know).Just wanna tell her that no matter what she can always come look for me if she needs someone to be there.I think the guy is a damn damn damn bastard.Go get a prostitute if you need to satisfy your sexual desire.Opps are you too poor to afford or are you too ugly that nobody wanna do your business.Don't prey on innoncents and take advantage of someone when she is drunk and you are sober.You'll burn in hell for doing this bastard!!!Sorry can't help scolding bad words.Anyway i've given up trying to communicate with him.It's just too hard and he isn't making it easy for me.Jixuan said this :
neko:err
neko:i think u expect too much
meow meow: me n my big mouth:no wat
meow meow: me n my big mouth:i dun
neko:or maybe, u r used to ppl getting very concerned over u..
neko:.....er u a bit far too rush
meow meow: me n my big mouth : er,
meow meow: me n my big mouth :erm
meow meow: me n my big mouth: huh reallymeh
neko: seems like u r those i like u so we sld be together type of person
meow meow: me n my big mouth :yeaaaaaaa
meow meow: me n my big mouth:hw u noe
neko: its obvious neko:but to be honest, a bit shallow
meow meow: me n my big mouth: y
neko:its not sincere enough..
neko:like, if u want to be with someone, u need time to understand them, bit by bit, and from there u will then realise if u truly like them a not.. if u have no understanding of a person and u say u like em and want to be with em.. its a bit..
neko: this is not a game. honestly ur thinking pissed me off a little
neko:its like, u dont want to put in effort and commitment to know the person to a deeper level
I seriously don't think I am shallow or i like someone easily.Maybe yeah i do have crushes here and there but isn't that suppose to be normal?Somtimes i seriously doubt myself.
My bruises aren't looking that great these days cause most probably it's on the road to recovery thus it turn to a darker colour.I look like some pokey dot human being and seriously i find it a bit gross.
Y 6:32 PM
Saturday, March 25, 2006
I never could figure why would i ever get 12 visit to my blog a day.Firstly I don't think i even give 12 people(that much) my blog address.Secondly I try to keep my blog as unnoticable as possible.Thirdly the things i write in here are certainly boring craps and unless you are obsessed with my life or me you wouldn't wanna sit down and read through.I am bewildered.
Y 10:58 PM
Ten Random Things You Might Not Know About Me
1)I care too much sometimes what people said about me
2)I think too much at times therefore would overreact
3)When i get really really bored,i'll cut my hair to kill boredom
4)My intuition are AT TIMES ONLY pretty good
5)I always do stupid things at time that even myself would disapprove after the whole thing
6)I always try to keep my feelings rational(but only half succeed)
7)I'll get agitated/mad/overly surprise when things aren't going the way I thought it will be
8)I don't drink coffee cause i think they stink
9)I always do things halfway and halfheartedly
10)I don't like unstable things or people
Y 10:37 PM
Friday, March 24, 2006
The photos from Puala Ubin
Y 9:45 PM
Here are the various photos taken at ikea
Y 8:39 PM
Let's see.I am sorta forcing myself to update because i've drag this for days.Since i am waiting for my 9pm drama show might as well do something right.
Went cycling at puala ubin with justin and leonard.Um don't ask me why i started talking to leonard again.Sick of fighting with him.So if he treats me nicely so will i but if he doesn't i'll ignore him.It's easier on myself this way.I've got nine major brusies,two huge cut on my both knees,one slightly smaller cut on the lower left calf,a bruised left thumb and several slightly smaller cuts on my left hand,two scraped palm.Yea as like leonard had said, the parts that can be bruised or cut are already there.After rolling down the steep slope twice the guys decided that we all have to turn back before i die or break my body parts.And to think that the second time i fell, i hit on my old-new wounds from the first fall plus more fresh ones.Or else we might just make it to chek jawa.We saw two crushed frog,one crushed lizard, one almost crushed monitor lizard(it was so cool n didn't flinch an inch when i ooze pass it),a pretend to be dead scorpion,loads of crabs from a safe distance(on their part not ours),loads of mudskippers from a safe distance(man they are actually quite big not as tenny weeny as i thought of it to be).Overall it was fun because i could escape from all the heatic lifestyle at singapore.It was like an escape from all these stress mounted on me.Ask me would i have done it all over again including all the injuries, yes i would.And three of us get to spend quality time together which had being deprive of for us sucha long time.
We went to leonard's house to play tennis and swim.After that went ikea with justin to get his stuff on thursday.I was late for one hour on both days.Haha don't ask me why.I reckon it's cause i have a lousy estimation.I always think and still do think that 1 hour is enough to get to anywhere in singapore no matter where you are n regardless of where your destination is.Of course i know this is untrue but somehow my subconscious mind will tell me that's true.I really gotta change my subconscious mind.
Anyway i think and so do some of my tennis mates feel that i've improved.It's about time really really.And i've earn this totally in exchange for all the beauty sleep i could have on saturday mornings,risking myself to sun damage,skin cancer and worker like skin colour.Yes yes yes!
Went to Z's brother's birthday party that saturday.I was fun fun fun.Haha cept that he is a lousy host leaving me to my death down there while he happily chatted around.Was indeed awkward intitally but when my gang came it was ok.The brother is quite cute too but shy also.The salad and cake was niceeeeeeeeee.Z told me that his friends and family assume that we are togther and that explains the weird stares they gave me when i walk in with him.Poor him,hafta go around explaining we aren't.But i like his family and relatives and friends cause they seem so tight together.
Was suppose to go for this two modelling interview yesterday and i agreed on a certain timing.But i decided it's crap and not go pretty last minute.Thus they call me like 20 times?Um sorta irresponsible of me but oh well.So me and z went shopping instead.I bought this nice blue shoe for like $24 from vivi( 50% off).Den tried two tops and two dress from mango, but wasn't that wearable cause they are so low cutted.So drop the idea.We went off early at about 3pm cause he need to get something done.The atmosphere was definately quiet and the awakardness was suffocating.Maybe me and him just can't talk well in real life and that is sad.Oh well, we still have plenty of time to know each other better so hopefully things gets better.
There are definately more in my head but don't feel like typing them down.Will do it soon though..till then.
Y 7:27 PM
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Paying for not studying much as a result i failed my basic theory test.5th of May again.Gosh i really didn't think i'll pass cause i seems to be able to do every question.Imagine my utter disappointment and shockness when i saw tat i've failed.Seriously i don't know which question i've done wrong.They should reflect this in the test system and they should show how much we've scored.Then at least we can learn from our mistake right.I couldn't even book a trail test cause it's all full.I don't know what else can i do except to really read my basic theory book( more accurate justin's).Yeah i was depress for an hour but life is full of ups n downs.I find leonard so irritating because his attitude towards me sucks.Yesterday was truly the last straw.If he didn't wanna go he could have say so he didn't have to drag the two guys in the picture.neither did he have to pretend to be so nice by asking justin to go with me.justin is not your servent and neither am i.I shall not let you do what you please because it's too much for me to bear.Bascially from yesterday onwards and till i can better face and deal with him,i am going to avoid and ignore him as much as possible.Because i tried communicating with him but it wasn't successful at all and he just refuse to compromise.
I am thankful to have him around.And though neither of us can remember what led us to talk in the first place, i don't regret anything.It's really weird because we had each other's contact for a year plus and we see each other around at times but we never chatted much.It's really just hi and bye.I didn't like him at all intially cause i think he's arrogant.But he is actually very nice.He listens to my crap everytime and have being very accommodating.He is like my pillar of strength now that i can sorta tell him when anything goes wrong.
But i am worried cause i don't wanna rely on someone that much and afraid that i'll be a burden with him.All these chatting till 4 plus in the morning and sharing bits and pieces of my life my thoughts,i'm afraid it might soon be a burden to him.He says he don't mind at all and he is free eveyytime anyway but maybe after a while it will soon be a burden to him.He never know and i never know for sure too.Thank you to the one up there because he is someone i can rely on when my relationship with leonard sours to the maximum.
Y 10:12 PM
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
I really shouldn't be watching tv now and i really should get started on reading my basic theory book.I really shouldn't be typing all these down but oh well it shouldn't matter much.It'll be a short one.
What I like About Guys
- responsible
- caring(but not overly)
- gives me my freedom
- smart
- semi good looking (don't have much faith in too good looking kind cuz they are jerk material)
- have his own group of friends
- dun be so 'sticky'
- respect my own thinking and all
- be motivated
- taller than me
- gentlemen type
- dun always compliment me cuz it will seem so insincere
- willingly to do things with me like watch movie or tat sort
- no bad breath
- not too physical type
- like animals or can accept pets
- romantic at times
- cannot be too logical neither can be too dreamy
- kind
- have dignity
- no stinky guys with bo please
- personal hygenic is important
- makes the first move
- don't be unreasonable
- don't no matter what lie to me(i mean major ones)
- able to communicate
As you can see i ask for the minimum only.So where on earth is him.
Y 8:56 PM
Monday, March 06, 2006
um yea can tell what the picture is talking abt rite
Y 2:04 AM
sy- a very nice girl actually.i like it when she smile.intially don't like her that much cuz she seems snooty.
k-very cheerful n crazy kinda babe
j-nice nice girl..thought she is like the mean kind but nopez i was wrong...considerate too.=)
Y 1:54 AM
got to ur local supermarket and get a comparision on how big the onion really is by obtaining on of those dishwashing thingy.
Y 1:41 AM
This is like when i am dead bored waiting for xuan to come out of the toliet while she was ACTUALLY READING HER DARN POEMS SITTING IN THE CUBICLE.i had time to take 7 picture and choose the best 3 out of them.This was how long i waited=(
Y 1:38 AM
i am very nice to you already.of all the seven pictures i took with you this is like the best and i don't care cuz i am determin to put up a pic.
Y 1:35 AM
As you can see i am very nice to censor the eye to protect the identity of two innoncent people.
Y 1:31 AM
Some quick updates about my life
1) Had a mix double with the ivp group and my group people.The weird thing is that out of like seven match, i was partner with this same guy for like four times.And the weirdest thing is that no matter how carefully i choose the card number, i got him.Maybe i shouldn't had said i want to partner with him at the start.And the weirdest thing is that out of the four times we partner, we got 0 score for three of it.-_-lll.Are we like so jinx partner that are bound to fail.Gosh and i feel tad sorry for him for maybe i caused that.But i aren't that lousy surely but the point is he is damn good in tennis...so.....argh whatever.But overall i think i have improved in terms of skill and footwork.And so needless to say the people even my coach makes fun of us being some couple crap.And up till like now it is still happening.Damn awkard that i make sure i don't talk to him and i even swear to theo that no matter what i won't add him in msn.And horribly they even force us to take some couple photo.Obviously me and him are like wanna die and the face damn 'smelly'.Even edmund join the dark side.Sigh to think i want to depend on him.
2)I realise that under the sun for too long i'll feel feverish.
Sometimes i really get so sick of tennis and certainly quitting it has always being on my mind on and off.Three girls are up to the ivp team but obviously i am not one of them.I wonder will i ever improve enough to be at there.My cca mate once told me that if u are in the sports cca and u aren't playing for ivp then it as much as wasting your time.Now that i think back, maybe it's true you know.
I went out with xuan today and we like shop around.I bought a shoe and she a dress and a coffee presser thingy.She told me wonderful stories of her two very unglamourous friends.One like super stingy and the other one although she is always in debt and not rich she always have to eat at posh place and buy branded stuff.I mean what the hell right.I thought such weird people only exist in tv but no...i am just too ignorant.She open my sight.Anyway we watch final destination 3 with my sister's ticket.Hopefully she won't get too mad when she get's home.But anyway she don't have time to watch movies with me so it's alright to take it..i guess.FD was like ok sorta same as FD 1 & 2.Just different story and character and gore.Anyway i saw this like hugeeeeeeeee oinion and i haven't seen anything tat huge so i took a picture of it.And xuan laugh at me....BUT I think your friends are like bitrillon times more laughable than my act.
Y 12:57 AM