But for the sake of a little mouthful of flesh we deprive a soul of the sun and light, and of that proportion of life and time it had been born to enjoy
Maybe I am a bit eccentric and hard to understand but that doesn't mean i am impossible to.They just find it too bothersome and assume that i am kind and nice that i won't mind anything.That i laugh and smile too much that they forget i'll cry like anyone,have mood swings like anyone.That if i explain they'll think i am being unreasonable,demanding,spoilt........all these negative thoughts but nthing about this might just be the last few attempts i am willing to give them anymore. If i leave them one day they'll be in shock and blame me for nt warning them when in fact i gave them so many warnings and chances.I am sorry that i cannot continue giving chances to people without burdening myself too much.Day by day, bit by bit i feel i am losing my true self because i know there is always a chance that people will not be able to accept that part of me.I find it too scary to show sadness because they will bring upon lots of explaination after it.I never like to show people that i am vulnerable too......maybe this is the root of all the problem... Where is that place where i can really be myself and people will still love me the same....I'll spend my whole life time to search and of course there are chances that i might not be able to find it ever. I shall close my eyes and leave this world for the time being.....
