This is Gemma Ward

Monday, October 30, 2006

I am feeling better now.Didn't have school so didn't go to school.But me, my sister and my brother brought the xiaobudian to the vet.We were thinking of a name for budian because we're all embrassed to tell the animal clinic that it's name is xiaobudian.At first we think of calvin,titus,roger blah blah.Den we settled for the name pudding cause it is the closest to budian.So there you have it, we have a outside name (pudding) and a home name(xiaobudian) for our darling.
It has being sheding fur like mad and it's getting more and more serious.At first we thought the fur will grow back but it didn't and more and more balding occur.So the vet said it's some fungus condition and she had two bottle of medicine and an anti-fungus shampoo for it.We hafta bring it back one month later for follow up regardless of the condition of the fur.So tat's one less problem on my mind.
I feel like skipping school this whole week but I'll most probably be too bored at home and will be too far behind my school work.Ugh!!!
I have being spending excessively on saturday.In fact I spent like $110 within hours and which in fact I AM SO NOT SUPPOSE TO DO SO.As a result I am living like a poor lady...well not that i have ever being rich.BUT I AM RARELY POOR UNTIL I HAFTA CONSIDER IF I WANNA BUY A $1.20 PEARL MILK TEA.
The only two good thing happen to be yesterday are 1st) the two cute guy from subway harbourfront seems to be interested in me.Oh man they are like tall and cute (guys that I have being deprive for very long) 2nd) leo says i am very pretty.I guess when you feel shitty you just need a person to pull you up again.But despite of these, I was still in a terrible mood yesterday...not like angry but more like sad.

him:hahah..u seem unhappy and trying to hide it much
me:serious??
why do u say so
hahah..yup yup...
haha maybe i am smiling but i have sad sorrful look
possibly
haha den why do u think i am sad..
out fo the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks
that's what God knows about us..it's found in the bible
when u are troubled in your heart, the external will show..especialy in speech
sometimes peopl can conceal it well
do i speak sorrowfully/
some people ccan't
haha n i am the later one?
it can be facial expressions as well
well, only you know it yourself..;)
or best as people say "God Knows"
haha
Do u know that there's something in u that u dun even know yourself?
huh
dun scare me
wat is it??
hahah..it's not scary
I believe that there's something beautiful and cheery in you
huh why
but the world's worries or pressure seems to bug you down
u feel stress, unmotivated and lost
that's y your cheeriness and beaty is lost in those
somehow you cannot get the inner peace
maybe......
there r times i do wish the world would stop for a moment...until i am ready
I dunno how true it is for u but that's what God tells me when I do pray for you..:)
lol!! u pray for me...

I think he is darn right about it and i think he is the only one that can see that side of me.I should go marry him or something cause imagine i can just keep quiet and he'll understand me.

Scenerio take 1 :

me: (stoning but actually thinking of eating green tea cake)
he: you want to eat green tea cake rite
me: wow how you know.dis is too amazing!!!

Anyway i am really kidding about the marriage part.

I am really thankful for tat's sweetness and kindness.He's like the most thoughtful and nicest good guy friend i ever had.He accompanyed me the whole day on saturday to look for my ring and we went from like paragon to centerpoint to plaza singapura to raffles city to centerpoint to shaw house before i finally got my ring.And he DIDN'T EVEN COMPLAIN A SINGLE CRAP.In fact he was like supportive and even said let's go back to centerpoint to get the ring (at that time we were at raffles city).I mean how nice can a person be rite.THANKS YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.And he even tried his best to comfort me. But anyway the ring I got is like one size too big but i figure i just wear a ring that is my size and place it above the big ring as a stopper.I did think of using uhu glue and glue up so that it will create that invisible rim but i'm scared it will corrode my ring.

meow meow : : i think ppl thinks tat i am spoilt
meow meow : : but at least i nv do anything bad to others
[c=55]-HWT17: yar lo
[c=55]-HWT17: u might b a bit spoil at times
[c=55]-HWT17: but u still very nice person
[c=55]-HWT17: u r one of the rare person that have nice heart
[c=55]-HWT17: esp that time the dog stuck at the drain
[c=55]-HWT17: how many ppl will do wat u do
meow meow : : den y couldn't ppl see it
[c=55]-HWT17: they juz dun understand u well ba
meow meow : : i noe it is selfish to say this
meow meow : : but why can't yf apologise
[c=55]-HWT17: he dun tink he is at fault
[c=55]-HWT17: and i tink is realli not both ppl fault...but if realli have to say who at fault i still tink both have fault from 3rd ppl view
meow meow : : i dun think it's his fault totally
meow meow : : but i dun think it's my fault at all

Sometimes I will think of xia, think about the times she hang out with us, think about the times we chit chat.But I have never think of Stella.I guess that's because i am always closer to xia than stella.I think that's how lili feels about stella that's why she wanna give stella chance again and again.

Jixuan what are you doing now?How are you?.......................

Y 7:17 PM