But for the sake of a little mouthful of flesh we deprive a soul of the sun and light, and of that proportion of life and time it had been born to enjoy
It's the second time i see dead animals on the road.Both head were gone and as the car went past their carcass,their body flew up slightly for the wind generated by the vicious car causes that.I think seeing dead animals is one of the world's most depressing thing.People might beg to differ because to them animals are just animals.But to me animals are life and i feel deeply about them.I don't think my friends in general get what's the fuss and maybe at times they are sick of my whining about death of animals.They try to change that belief by saying isn't it cruel to eat vegetables too as they are living things too.I get quite sick of explaining because this is sorta like if you don't get it you don't get it.I don't need people to change their belief to stand on my side but it is definately nice if they can respect my belief.I don't want to seem pushy but sometimes i might fiercely protect my own belief and hopefully people won't get offended. I am getting scared to look at the road nowadays and i get very anxious when i see animals(dog or cats or birds) trying to cross the road or by the roadside.Because for some reason i just feel that they are going to be knock down by cars that drive past them.Maybe i've seen too many death on the road to be optimistic about that.I guess it might be the same for people living in a war zone.You lose any hopes in life because all you can see is blood and death.You don't even know when it's your turn to die next.What they and me need is a miracle to bring us back to hoping and believing.I honestly need to witness some miracle on the road.I don't deny that intially i feel really depress and lousy inside after seeing them on the road flatten but now i feel calmer though still sad about it.It got so bad that i actually start to pray for less animals to be killed on the road.I don't normally do that because i am not a very religious person but i try to be a spiritual one.But my sixth sense is normally too blinded to feel anything holy or ghostly or go to a higher state.All my life i've being wanting to witness a ghostly sight and maybe i did like last year in my room but despite that i don't think i am quite scared of them yet. I don't understand something and maybe you guys can help me with it.Why is it that i feel nothing when i see dead human pictures but i feel so disgusted and sad and angry when i see dead animal pictures.And most of the time i can't bear to look at them.I am human right so logically i should feel more for dead humans than dead animals.Oh god am i going mad soon. Anyway how do you know if the guy that appear in front of you is the right one?They always talk about 'that special feeling' but i think all my life i've being trying to search for 'that special feeling'.My friends said don't go looking for love and let love find you.But isn't this a bit cliche.Almost everybody have being there done that.They've probably really like a person before or at least experience that euphoria feeling when they fall in love.And they have their heart broken when the one they love don't love them back.They say i am too picky but isn't it suppose to be if you don't like the person you don't waste their time or lead them on?Sometimes i wonder is it better that i wait a while before deciding if the person is suitable for me.But then he will be left to pick up the broken pieces if eventually i feel that he isn't the one for me.Isn't that too cruel?At time especially when dealing with people's feelings i tend to play it too safe...I don't know...Maybe...
