But for the sake of a little mouthful of flesh we deprive a soul of the sun and light, and of that proportion of life and time it had been born to enjoy
I've decide to trust horoscope a bit more.Have being checking out horoscope of people i care about.Mmmm actually that not very true.Ok fine i admit.I've only being checking horscope of the two guy i fancy.Cannot is it!!It's a white lie k. But anyway i realise i can't really click with cancerian people.Ok you see i have this three close cancerian friend but as the months go by they are sorta like more and more weird to me.Not in the sense they are pervertish or whateverso but just that can no longer click.If you asked me why this sudden thought.It isn't quite suddenly.It's more like over the months it build up more and more till it's starting to burst out within me.They are too emotional that i can't handle it.It's good to be emotional cause that means you feel about issues but overly really kills.Firstly these issues are so yesterday.I've spent my year one and year two going back and fro to these problems,trying to find a win win solution to it.But actually there can be no win win situation to issues as such.Just four very different people trying their best(actually it's one against three) to stay through together.But you see i am so different from them that no matter how hard we try to compromise our real character will still surface when the going get's tough.I'm facing this more and more with them.It really became a point where whether there are there or not it doesn't matter much.Not that i despise them or whatever but they don't matter that much to me.I can don't talk to them the whole day and i don't feel that absence in my heart.Last time as recent as year two i'll feel this loneliness if i don't talk to them at all or don't meet them at lunch.But now i don't feel that.In fact it's pretty nice to just have lunch with cheryl.It's quiet and quality lunchtime.Not that it isn't quailty enough with the rest of them but it's different. I admit that i was too harsh and honest with today's conversation but that is exactely what i feel.I mean to walk out of a bad relationship is to face it in a realistic way and not idealise it too much.So i quit trying.There was a time when if you guys said all these to me i would have leap to mars in joy.But it's really a tad too late my lovely friends. You see if you guys don't tell me much the gap would of course be there and oh please don't expect me to read the blogs and automatically understand what you are talking about.Because i am left too far behind that i can no longer make sense of anything much.Besides what's up with the secret blogs too and the constant changing of blog add that i can never stay ahead of you guys.This is all too bizzare.You guys write in blog and then i read the blog and then i ask what is wrong and then you reply about the same thing as you've written in the blog.So you see in the end nothing make sense(of course am not talking about the context of the blog). Sorry if i had make anyone sad or cry or negative or unhappy(wait sad n unhappy is the same rite)or anything bad(bad n negative is the same too rite).Cause it is not my intention to do so.
