- My life feels empty...
It's like i don't know what am i doing all these things for?
i feel stress up about drama because i make so many mistake day by day..and it's stressing for me because i did what i could at that point of time.Yet i guess maybe my advisors or the drama members don't see it.i feel sorta unappreciated.being secetary is no easy job and definately stressing.i don't mind actually if only i could be more appreciated.
it's only the third week of school yet i feel so dread about it already and have skip four lessons already.i don't know what is happening to me.sometimes i feel that definately at some point of time i am going to stop going to school totally.my classmates being noticing that and they always ask heyz i never see you in class yesterday or heyz you never come class yesterday right or heys are u coming to school.Shit my life!
i haven't being going to tennis until my advisors are sorta warning to kick me out of tennis if my attendance is still this bad.where is my drive and passion for tennis? where is the me a year ago? friendships have fallen apart me leonard and justin.we are no longer close.i don't know what had happen but i guess it's natural.i can't fight against the nature flow but only to accept it because i've tried but failed.me and sheryldine and her gang had definately drifted apart.me n theo are not that close anymore either.it just seem that there isn't a point for me to stay on.my tennis hasn't being improving too due to the constant skipping.
my daily life is just to go online doing what you might ask?STUPID STUPID BRAINLESS STUFF..reading people's blog,downloding songs,surfing idols website,reading gossips,playing games,chatting on msn...all very PATHETIC ACTIVITES.I AM WASTING MY LIFE.
basically i feel spiritually empty...i need to burry myself in books and more books to make myself feel better.It's my remedy.
