But for the sake of a little mouthful of flesh we deprive a soul of the sun and light, and of that proportion of life and time it had been born to enjoy
okie i think i am wayyyyyyy too harsh...i take back what i said about janice yesterday...that was really mean..That is also why i always feel sooooooooo relieve that not much people know my blog...Imagine the aftermath of my emotional outburst.....(Shiver)Sue kept asking for my blog...and so like the others but i don't wanna give because all the things i write is soooooo private and i don't wanna turn this blog into something that is for the others but not myself.I shudder at the thought of writing things like : 'wow i spend blah blah day with blah blah blah person.guys i miss u so much..hugsssssssss'.Nooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!I dun want that because i wanna write everything i feel without hiding anything at all...you know that sort of feeling like being able to relese yourself totally in all these words,being able to vent your anger in here...here is my hideout....Okie i am losing it..Mmmm continue den i shall... Oh ya i did something that i am darn proud of myself...that is i delete and block justin bryan already.I should have done this earlier and then maybe he won't be lying and bugging me.i shouldn't have keep hoping and believing that he would be honest with me anymore and i should have stop believing in him anymore.Oh well but all these is a past already so oh well~(shrug). Something terrible happened yesterday but was too tired and too upset to write anymore further..So i shall do it now...I fight with sue yesterday and that was our first major fight...It was really nasty and we exchange a few harsh and insensitive words...And i thought she's sucha horrible person because she didn't care.i said if we pretend not to talk to each other...it would mean for real and not even chat online n sms.Then she was like pissed and said like she thought it was just not meeting that's all and she said anything lar,suits myself,too tired to care that sorta hurting and insensitive words..Well so i didn't say it out to her but certainly to myself was like : fine she choose janice already watever lar....who cares huh.But then i and her talk on the phone and all that so i am like okies and she was like so apologetic that i just forgive her...Besides i was harsh with my words too...Althought she bugs me and all that and is mean to me at times.But still she let's me my way if she can and therefore she is someone i really do treasure.And we have so much in common and see eye to eye with each other and i could just be myself around here therefore it makes me comfortable.And all the conicident is like scary(in her tone)....lol.And we chatted on the phone to talk it all out and she told me like she ask janice to leave her to be on herself for the time being...And we chatted till we were like pratically falling asleep.....And was reading her blog juz now and she was soooooooo sweet to apologise in there that i did the same to her on msn.So everything is okie...I am just gald everything is over because at time it is like totally draining away my energy and it sometimes it just upsets me emotionally. Yawn i am lazy to type.....maybe blog again later or tmr???
