Tuesday, May 03, 2005
i haven't being blogging much for the last few um weeks? or it is days? whatever~.The thing is sometimes i am just too lazy to type all my blah blah.Anyway i wonder do people actually visit my blog?But i am sure they do just that they are like me-always reading but never bother much to leave a message.Now i finally understand why people love to have tagboard in their blog.Everyone wants to be well liked or that the things they write being acknowledge.Yes and i am like any other human beings so *ahem ahem* u guys should know what to do right(big grin).
I went escape theme park with leonard and justin today(actually we were planning to cycle but had a change of mind) and guess what i saw xiu xia and the two friend that i always see on photos with.And know what her indian friend say i am chio.Muahahahha that'll teach xiu xia not to underestimate me...always complaining about my looks right..hohoho obviously someone has goooooddddd taste...Eat this!Um wait okie xiu xia is ACTUALLY saying i look more chio....and she said she just came online to tell me this...Wait this is like the very first time she like praise me like after one year plus.....This feels kinda weird n mmm very very suspicious indeed...Oh well nvm..it's a compliment and i am feeling happy already...lalalalalala i am on top of the world....blah blah.Oh wait i went a bit off....yea so the thing is that her friends look friendlier in real life than photos.Um get what i mean...it's like sometimes u've got to see how a person speak and behave in real life to get hold of a better perspective of that person.Yeah so why is she hanging out with her friends and ignoring me?Bor jio me to escape also....=( Boooooooo lar.Haha kidding lar...I understand....=)
I saw some quotes a day ago and just to share over here before i give my 2 cents of worth
- The worst thing is when ur falling in love with the person falling out of love with u
- Maybe we only obsess over relationships that feel unfinished
- He is standing right here yet I miss him so... he means nothing to me but I can't let go
- Sometimes you have to let go of a person to find out if there's something to hold on to.
I can identify with those quotes and think everyone can too at some point of time in their life.Too often we took lust for love and not saying there is anything wrong but in the end only you yourself will suffer.And we are always chasing after people that we cannot get and rejecting people that fancy us.We always have this concept that the grass is always greener on the other side.And maybe at some point of the time i ask myself that why am i holding on to something that isn't worth my time.I think i got the answer that i've be searching for the past three month from here.I think i've got to learn to understand that things don't and can't always go my way and i have to respect people's decision.I was on the mrt and all of a sudden that it dawn on me that i am a bit of a control freak.I like to be in control and gets kinda frustrated or agitated when things don't go the way i anticipate it to be.After all these years...why have i only realise it till now.I made life difficult for myself while all along i thought that people hate me and purposely want to put me down.But no...the greatest enemy a person have is only himself.And i have being neglecting my self spiritual development for far too long..I haven't being doing much intellectual stuff so i actually feel kinda like stupid and useless.So yeah,besides i got to start paying more attention to classes especially java (which i really CMI!!!).Die lar...time to pull up my socks already.Life is gonna get really hectic for this week due to the cca open house.Groan...=*( that is what happens when you get too ambitious and join four cca's...anyway i am planning to drop weiqi though it pain me...But i really really truly have no time for it..nature ig and tennis and drama is soooooooo time consuming already...Unless i can be at two place at one time so there really isn't enough 'lilin' to be around...Tomorrow is java...so i better sleep early...nightsssssssssss
ps( did i mention that i am totally addicted to like sad love quotes because they inspires me and makes me feel better...does it sound weird?haha.)
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