Friday, April 15, 2005
Okie another day spent at east coast beach cycling away....today was a total breakthrough.I cycle all the way from one extreme end to another end(safara) but along the way back, my butt and thighs totally hurts...and i barely make my way back to the rental place.Leonard is sick and he claims that i spread my germs to him.Okie maybe i really did but hey i am half dead myself too and well who ask him to hang out with me.So yups don't care don't care lar...anyway i am sure he don't mind....besides he always treat me badly too...But he sounds sooooooooo much nicer when he has a sore throat...it makes his voice deep and sexy.You know sometimes i really feel that leonard a bit heck care.maybe that is just how a virgo acts....but well it won't kill him to talk more right.I mean i do see that he tries sometimes like today i was angry with them and he tried to cheer me up.I guess it's the time again when i start to hope for better and closer friendship and therefore applying more pressure to them.And sometimes he really irriates me like he will always screen shot my msn pic and then he'll edit it to a totally hideous look.And even though i ask him to remove that from his display pic he will just dismiss me away.And why can't he look for other victims.Argh.
And alarice why why why do u keep asking me the same question man....There is really nothing between me and leonard or justin.Everyone please stop guessing or pushing me to either them.This always happen when i am close with a group of guys and i am terribly sick of it.I can take it when people ask about it intitally but after like the fourth time? seriously man...give me a break lar.Alarice is really weird lor.She kept asking like hey do you think leonard or justin likes you?Do you think they stand a chance? Hey you can really be either justin or leonard's gf eh(in front of them somemore)...I really don't know what else to say even though i kept telling her no no no no!
Oh yeah there had being rumours floating around saying that we might change coach due to the budget problem...but den again nothing is set in stones yet so well wait and see...But it will be so weird if we change to a new coach because well after all royston had being with us for so long already and he knows all our weakness and strength.I predict if we do change a coach it will totally sucks lar.
Anyway justin and leonard don't really seem to like alarice.And then it just makes me think that sometimes the things alarice ask or say are so like the things i will too....so does that means they don't like me too?It just makes me feel so insecure about my friendship with them and i spend the whole time thinking about it on the bus after i parted with them.
And i am feeling so stressed up about the new semester cause it seems like we have so many things to finish..pp,c.e points,my three cca,daily work,uts,and working during the weekends...Argh and what about my own entertaiment and all that....I won't have time for everything...i won't be able to balance everything....i can't...then i'll be someone who is like so worthless...having no life....argh....noooooooooooooooooooo.Okie i got to snap out of this.Just smile smile and be happy....
Y 9:06 PM
