I came across this two quotes and thought hey i can identify with this.Maybe it's because i am having the hearts for him that is why i just get all teary and feel this strong connection to every love quote.So many thing happened between me and him and it gets kinda dreadful.Maybe i think too much every day and about everything that everything seems so bleak and fruitless.Everything that had happen seems futile and in vain.No longer do i hope for anything from him.He disppoints me too much that i cannot trust him like before.Why should i desperately hold on to the things that do not belong to me.I do not want anything that does not belong to me.Sometimes walking away is harder than staying put because there is always this hope that you hold on to it.He asked me to trust him but he didn't trust me in return.Always asking me question yet rarely answer mine.Maybe he does need time to warm up like what everyone says but darling i no longer have the patience to wait for you to make up your mind.If you do treasure me you would have done so already.Why cancel meeting and apologise the very next minute?What is the point?To make yourself feel better?I don't think it will work out unless you change your attitude but when you do...i'll be gone from your life.I get scared when you sms or msn me now because i don't wish to further jeopardize our relationship.Sometimes it is better to stop at a point at it's highest peak.Anything in excess is never too good.Bit by bit my feelings for you are fading away and soon i will only like u as a friend.Maybe my friends will think that it is such a pity to give up when he is showing such strong signs that he like me.But what if those signs are not that sort then what am i suppose to do for by then i would have given my heart to you totally.I do not and cannnot find the courage to wait nor like you anymore.I am sick and tired of repeating this vicious cycle of you failing me,apologising,me forgiving you.My darling i have given you far too enough chance.And that day i asked you repeatdly to stay behind is a test that i haf for you.I told myself if you stayed on i will continue to wait for you to warm up but if you don't i will be leaving you.And at this point of time i got to be selfish and think for myself so i am leaving you.It will be easier to forget you because i have six weeks of holidays to do that.I do hope that when we see each other the next time i would be able to see you as my real friend.
Love Li Lin
(If you want me come and get me.Game or not game)