Saturday, February 05, 2005
Seriously I think I am turning into some kind of like matchmaker or something like that. I always like help couples to patch up. Do u think I have the like i-so-wanna-help couples look or maybe I give out the vibe? It isn’t a bad thing of course and it’s always nice to see couples who deserve each other to get back together. But I don’t know…sometimes helping others for this case makes me feel a bit lonely. And it makes me wonder will anyone do that for me if someday I have the same problem. Darn I sound so pitiful but of course I am not. Anyway today Xiao hsin and Li Li was like quarreling totally. And both of them cried in front of me without each other’s presence. So I had to pacify both of them…honestly I think they need to have a heart to heart talk. And that means go straight to the source of their problem instead of going around in circles. Honestly speaking I feel that if they don’t have that heart to heart talk, sooner or later they are gonna get sick of quarreling and just wanna break up. And if they wait until that day, nothing can salvage their relationship. And if after the talk they still continue to fight like this…I will strongly recommend them to break up. I know this is mean so I dare not tell anyone about this. But I feel that if one day things really go that bad there is no point to stay in that relationship. Actually it is an art to advice both parties because sometimes the line of what is to be said and what should not be said is blured.And what I think is appropriate for them might not be what they have in mind. Of course I can pretend that I care or I can just say things like aiyah then what to do, dun fight and all that sorta stuff but I wanna put in my best effort .I don’t wanna regret about this in the future.
And I hate to see any of my friends being sad or unhappy because they will affect my mood. I can’t help it because I get influence by other’s emotions very easily. Sometimes it is hard to deal with all these but they don’t even know. They don’t understand. Today is lili tomorrow is eric and the next is stella etc.It is really hard to deal with it and I am trying hard to think of some ways.
Anyway I chat with E today about lili’s stuff(that maybe he can give good advice) and about this problem..He gave some very good advice and very realistic too.He is really a very lovely guy and I own him so much.he is always there for me when I need someone to talk to and he don’t judge.He helps me without a motive and that is total loveliness.This is not the first time I trouble him and yet he is really cool about it.And when I always apologise to him for troubling him he will always put that smiley face and say no problem at all.I don’t know how I can repay this back to him but I don’t think he need my help too.we are kinda at different level if you know what I mean ya.but I am happy the way we are right now.
Y 1:34 AM
