But for the sake of a little mouthful of flesh we deprive a soul of the sun and light, and of that proportion of life and time it had been born to enjoy
haiz my god i am in such a confuse state now.I don't know what i want.but i don't seem to have the mood to be in a relationship. johny has being smsing me every single night and honestly speaking i am getting tired of it.don't he get tired of smsing me especially when i no longer reply it.it's very sweet of him to like sms me good night message but oh god every night man...that is far too much for me to handle.i really hope that he stop it soon because it is kinda irriating.lord man,i know it is mean for me to say this but give me some space to breathe man.and today c&c we(lili,stella,cheryl,xiu xia) went to tiong bahru market to do our survey thingy and i meet this damn pervert uncle.he irritaes me totally man.and he still have the check to say hey when can i see you again.yucks!never man!dream on!fat chance!get a life!get lost!he creeps me out totally.pervert uncles in general are so detesting..correction i meean all perverts are detesting.
i think i finally know the reason why i am still not attatched after all these years.and the fault lie in me.i get really scared and turn off when guys(generally) like goes after me.But it sounds so bloody stupid because it's like how can you be in a relationship without the dating part ,without the intial chasing part right.so i am totally contridicting myself when i say i wish to be attatched but don't wish to be woo by guys.Erm okie now i am confuse too...oh in short it simply means that my ideas are totally clashing.or could it be that i don't truse guys in general(could be you know after seeing my frds being cheated and all that).or could it be i've lose faith in relationship long time already.or the guys that i will be attracted to has not yet appear?for now i just really wanna be single...i need time for myself ,to think about things....
