Monday, December 13, 2004
Today is such a negative day...intitally i'm feeling bad about the trip and the vibes he is giving out....but i actually feel so at peace after consulting my tarot cards.I realise that if u pay attention to what the cards are trying to convey with an open mind,the cards are actually pretty accurate.and it works even for people like myself that is so darn not-psychic.And all of the ten cards in the reading is so accurate that it is able to say what i am feeling today totally.
Words of wisdom from the reading(the importance of achieving a balance within oneself as well as in one's surroundings.this cannot be rushed,however and time must be allowed to run its course).
oh dear i haven't buy a tennis racket and i'm dragging this way too long.the sooner i get it the sooner i can close this issue.And tomorrow i have training.Sigh that means got to wake up early.hoho but luckily i have american next top model later to cheer me up.i am so addicted to that show....totally guilt free cause well everyone loves to look at pretty faces and bodies right.I am really pretty into tennis right now and i am even like willingly to sacrifice a few days of my holiday to go for extra training not forgetting to mention that i've got to like pay $40 for that extra thingy.seriously i think jacynthia don't seem to like me much......i ask sherlydine about it and she is like saying no la must be your imagination and all that....but seriously(i sometimes can be real accurate)i think she feels that way about me.initially it really really bothers me and i went all out to talk to her and all that and i even like praise her being able to make it to the sch team(be mindful i wasn't lying at all when i said that,i really do think she is good) but i don't think it works.But now i am like more able to come in term with it....I can't expect everyone to like me right....just as long as she don't hate me can already......sometimes i just cannot expect too much from people.I thought we could become kinda close....in fact i though i will be closer to J than S but in the end it turn out the opposite....but it's okie....maybe it takes time or maybe it just won't happen.=)Sometimes it is better to be less tense and loosen up a bit.
oh yah i have being selected to become drama's vice secretary...And when my name was called the first thing i said was huh what does a drama secretary do?Seriously i have no idea at all intitally.And i was sooooooo shock to hear my name cause i totally never ever in my million years would think that i'll be even like eligeble for that cause i am pretty much a very quiet person over there.But today i am more like um ok..i am the vice secretary therefore i shall do a good job.And hohohoh i get the c.e. points that is like totally cool.
anyway the big main reason why i don't let anyone around me know the existence of my blog is because i don't want them to come in here and read my stuff and then judge me on it.I write those stuff cause i want to and maybe at the spur of moment i wrote something bad or watever so and i don't want to be appologising for things that i don't really mean it .But there are things that i don't even write down in here because those are my very private stuff and i don't even want people that does not know me personally to know about it.
oh darn i forgot about the true files....got to catch my show now
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