Wednesday, September 29, 2004
I went to XS's blog and I dun know why but it seem kinda sad....I am not sure if he is talking about me.But if he is then I've really hurt him badly.I don't know what can I do for him...to make him feel less sad.He told me he love me but how true is that I do not know...But on the other hand he seem so sincere and trueful so I am willingly to believe him.Do you think I should reconsider him?I mean he definately don't need my 'sympathy'.Maybe I should play some part and take the initiative to well mingle with him too.But I did some sort of this stuff during the camp period and I don't really think I have that special feelings for him.I am happy being friends with him for I feel no sparks for him during that three day....But I'm keeping my fingers crossed because there is no absoulate in this world....But at least what I can be sure of is that I only wish to remain as friends with him.It's just that i really really really truly hope that everything will turn out ok with him.Maybe i shouldn't drag this till this long(before turning him down) but i'm just buying time and hoping that i'll like him too...Then everything will be happy and well...I guess I miscaculated.
And yeah I think E is not being sincere enough in pursuing me so I didn't really consider him...Besides initially I thought i have that special feeling for him but later on I realise that it's really quite impossible.Worst of all they are both close friends so i did have my concerns about this.....
Y 8:03 PM